Day 18 – beach yoga, coffee and thinking about birthday cake.

I went to a beach yoga class which turned out to be a bootcamp and although I’m sure it was perfect as far as bootcamps go I hate group exercise generally. I know you’re thinking “why go to a yoga class then?” well because to me yoga is different, you’re doing your own practice around other people. It’s a hanging out but seperate vibe. Group exercise is all that “all in it together” mostly humiliating myself being crap at running kinda stuff. Also because I was expecting yoga I turned up in my vans and ended up having to go barefoot or ruin vans and think I broke my toe on something. Still it was beautiful scenery.

No my little toe isn’t normally this fat

I’ll definitely go back if it’s good weather next week and will be yoga but if it’s overcast and likely to be “bootcamp” I’ll just practice at home I think 😂

On the positives for today I had some really lovely support from a couple of old friends, one I met for coffee and the other via the phone. But I felt that very special thing where you genuinely believe someone is there for you. Which is lovely.

Things aren’t any better with my son, in fact I’d say worse. I’m hoping he’ll get the help he needs. Or should I say will take the help he’s being offered. We met today for a chat with a counsellor, it was so awful I think it will be many weeks before I feel comfortable even sitting in a room together again.

Food wise I forgot to photograph today but it was a fairly bland just get food sorted day.

Breakfast

Oats, apple, dates

Lunch

Corn cakes, butter, cheese

Dinner

Falafels, salad, grapes, natto,

Snacks

Dark chocolate

Total sugars – virtually all from 30g of dates this morning

It’s coming up to my birthday and I’m pondering what to do about birthday cake, shall I allow rice syrup as some of the “sugar free” gurus do because it’s glucose and the evil bit is apparently fructose. Or should I make a whole load of raw cakes which would probably all basically taste like banana or date or banana, date and avocado. Any thoughts?

Day 16 – exhausted

I’m having a rather exhausted morning and had planned on a fairly lazy one, then I discovered I actually was driving my eldest to work…again. Which is over an hour there and back. Oh joy. After dropping him off Jasper dog and I went for a short run on the beach, it’s not one we’ve run on before and although beautiful wouldn’t be my first choice simply because it’s so busy. I quite like to have no people when I exercise, it’s headspace time. That sounds dreadfully antisocial I realise! It was a pleasant short plod, though I do wish I would occasionally feel like I’m progressing with running. It never gets easier and I never get faster! I do always feel better for it though.

This evening I’m watching Bohemian Rhapsody with my daughter, I’ve seen the film before and love it so I’m really looking forward to that!

Today’s food in words and some pictures!

Breakfast

Grapes, blueberries, yoghurt and cacoa nibs

Lunch

Corn crackers with cream cheese and baby corn.

Dinner

Chicken korma – banana, coconut milk, and chicken breast with poppadoms and brown rice.

Snacks

An Ella ball thing and 100 dark

Total sugars (all unrefined)