Day 22 – slight mishap and a trip to Bamburgh

It was actually a really lovely day today. After house stuff I spent a little time at gym on the air bike. Exercise always, always clears my mind. Of course I’m limited with broken toes, but my over sized Primark trainers allowed me to get on the bike.

After lunch I took my daughter to Bamburgh which is a pretty little village a short drive away. It has quite an impressive castle, but pretty much everywhere here has a castle! It’s not something Northumberland is short on.

Jasper particularly enjoyed killing the seaweed. It’s one of his favourite pursuits at beaches.

There was a slight mistake with a cappuccino I ordered. It came with sugared chocolate, I had asked for cinamon. Now in some circumstances I would have said something, but the lad who served me had been told off 3 times just while I was waiting and with a queue forming behind me I thought I’m not making a fuss. So I scrapped it off as best I could.

This is me looking impressed

I so, so, so wanted a gin. Warm days and gin. Argh.

Today’s food and total sugars

Breakfast

Eggs and corn crackers

Lunch

Roasted chickpea and olive salad

Dinner

Banana and cherry ice cream with cacao nibs (made with just frozen fruit blended)

Snacks

Seeds, nakd bar

Exercise- air bike

Day 17 – cinnamon and natto

I’m becoming obsessed with cinnamon, how did I never realise how amazing it is! After just over 2 weeks cinnamon in almond milk cocoa seems to negate the need for sugar.

I was thrilled to find that as long as don’t add the sauces there are brands of natto I can have. I love natto! Plus it’s really good for my gut biome.

Today’s food in words and pictures- I actually took the photos this time!!!

Breakfast

Oats, mixed berries, cinnamon, semi skimmed milk, cacao nibs.

Lunch

Green salad leaves, feta, pomegranate, olive oil, no added sugar balsamic vinegar.

Apple, blackberries, raspberries crème Fraiche

Dinner

Sweet potato burger, natto, grapes, rocket, sugar snap peas, olive oil.

Snacks

Nakd bar

100% dark chocolate

I am really starting to enjoy food again, for the first couple of weeks I was quite aware of what I couldn’t have. Now I’m starting to look forward to what I can have. Though I’m sure there will be hiccups along the way. I have had a couple of people ask if I’m hoping to lose weight and the answer is no not really, in fact because I’m adding in creme Fraiche and olive oils calories wise I’m eating around 100 to 150 more a day. Maybe I’ll get plump on sugar free!!!!

Total sugars

Exercise – CrossFit

Followed by a dog walk

Jasper and I spotted the new sign for the series of The Heist being filmed here. We looked for villains or detectives but we’re disappointed.

Day 16 – exhausted

I’m having a rather exhausted morning and had planned on a fairly lazy one, then I discovered I actually was driving my eldest to work…again. Which is over an hour there and back. Oh joy. After dropping him off Jasper dog and I went for a short run on the beach, it’s not one we’ve run on before and although beautiful wouldn’t be my first choice simply because it’s so busy. I quite like to have no people when I exercise, it’s headspace time. That sounds dreadfully antisocial I realise! It was a pleasant short plod, though I do wish I would occasionally feel like I’m progressing with running. It never gets easier and I never get faster! I do always feel better for it though.

This evening I’m watching Bohemian Rhapsody with my daughter, I’ve seen the film before and love it so I’m really looking forward to that!

Today’s food in words and some pictures!

Breakfast

Grapes, blueberries, yoghurt and cacoa nibs

Lunch

Corn crackers with cream cheese and baby corn.

Dinner

Chicken korma – banana, coconut milk, and chicken breast with poppadoms and brown rice.

Snacks

An Ella ball thing and 100 dark

Total sugars (all unrefined)

Day 15 – a catch up on the week

I think I passed the course, though how I did with everything going on heavens knows. I think the distraction was probably a good thing. I came home last night really apprehensive.

Today I spent the morning on the phone to various professionals today virtually begging for help for my son. They are pretty much of the opinion that the only one who can stop taking drugs is the person taking drugs. Which is an awful thing but true. The whole think is so sad and I really hope he chooses to get well.

Anyway I stuck to my no sugar, no booze in the midst of all this and while on a course away from home. There were times I was very tempted though. Especially to comfort eat. The university is amazing and such a friendly environment to the point where they had a tea trolley arrive mid morning and mid afternoon with a tea and scones or pastries. Pure torture!

Look how lovely these are!!

I stuck to my guns by when I arrived getting a Tesco delivery to meet me where I was staying. I’d brought a lunch box and took packed lunches every day. Then cooked in the evening. There have been two times I’ve eaten out yesterday and today. Yesterday I went to pret as they have quite plain salad boxes. I just didn’t add the dressing. Today I ordered a grilled chicken salad without croutons and dressing.

I haven’t managed to photograph everything etc, with the course and all the drama just sticking to no sugar no booze has been hard enough but I will try this week!

Day 11 – whine, whine, wine

I really want a large cold glass of dry white wine. I want it so much I can taste it in the back of my throat that delicious cool crispness. I don’t drink regularly or eat badly, but like a lot of people when life is tough I have the urge to comfort myself with nice things, it’s an almost primal urge. I had green tea instead.

I’m in the middle of a family dispute with my son, of course the irony of being on a mediation training course while in the middle of a family dispute is not lost on me.

Anyway onto today, the mediation course is really interesting although during some of the role playing practices I felt myself almost tearing up as I’m feeling so vulnerable. Playing at being in conflict while heartbroken and in conflict is rather weird.

Today’s food- just in words

Breakfast

Oats, mango, almond milk

Lunch

Bun with egg mayo, salad

Dinner

Potato waffles, 3 eggs, tinned peas

Raspberries, blueberries, pomegranate seeds creme fraiche