More hysterectomy tales, a nasty illness, adopted cat and a cheat day!

It’s been a tough month since I posted last. I was coming along amazingly after the hysterectomy, walking every day starting to get on with life. Then two weeks after I came down with some form of illness. It’s hard to say if it was a virus plus an ear infection or a really serious ear infection. All I know is that for 6 days I did nothing but sleep and throw up and my balance was so off moving was like I was drunk. I was sleeping for around 18 to 20 hours a day, the time I wasn’t asleep I was curled up on my left side feeling so unwell I was wishing I was asleep. It was awful, By day 6 my husband was so worried that he called an emergency doctor as standing up involved falling over basically every time. Because I had had an operation so recently she too was concerned in case I had a sepsis brewing somewhere. I ended up in hospital. Thankfully they were able to establish that I was in no danger, they also figured out that as part of what was going on my vestibular nerve in the inner ear had been affected hence the inability to stand or move. I have had a chronic ear infection for months so it’s likely that had spread. During that week literally the only thing I could hold down was a couple of slices of white bread a day. I must admit I was not considering the challenge at this point, my body was exhausted from surgery and then illness. I think this is an allowable time to not try to read labels.

After antibiotics the worst of the illness seemed to clear up though my inner ear is still affected, I was back at work during the tail end of feeling awful which was around 4 weeks post op. I also had a phd proposal to get in to the university within 5 days, a completely new one I had not even started. By the end of that week I was exhausted and by the end of this last week with work, working more on my proposal, exercise and homeschooling I’m pretty exhausted too. I’m glad I’ve managed to get back into gentle exercise at the gym and running (run/walk/run), this past week I had 2 gym sessions and 2 runs which 6 weeks post op I am happy with.

I am functioning ok during the day but by the time my day ends at around 7 and I have time to sit down all I want to do is go to bed and I end up asleep by 9. It’s hard to tell if the tiredness is a post infection issue, a post op issue or a combination of the both. I am hoping it will abate soon as my life is not one that has many opportunities for rest which makes dragging myself around slightly miserable.

Monday ended up being a cheat day, I had Charlotte at the hospital in Newcastle when all of a sudden I came over so shaky and weak that I had to have some form of instant energy. I have paid the £20 fine into the fundraising in accordance with my rules!

Oh and we have adopted a stray we are calling Bertie, when I say adopted I think he just decided he lived here.

A few days away from the end of month two!!! Plus a few super quick meals.

And not a single sweet treat or snack has passed my lips. Nor a drop of booze, but truthfully that one’s easier as it’s not everywhere and in EVERYTHING!

I have found it harder to stick with this challenge than I thought I would, the food prep gets grinding. This week was particularly tough as I’ve had an ear infection and felt dreadful. I’ve had problems with my ears on and off for years. Grommets were fitted last year as a result and right now I’ve an infection around the grommet. So the grommets were put in to prevent infection and caused an infection. Awesome. I have a nice little pile of boxes of stuff to take.

Because of feeling like an extra in the walking dead everything this week has been really simple. Slow cooker meals, one sauce pan etc.

Like this one which is a soup made from tinned chickpeas, kidney beans, passatta, frozen spinach and dried lentils. Throw it all in a pan and come back half an hour later. I also add in paprika, cumin etc. I like spices! Also had it with soda bread I’d made earlier in the week.

Or this quinoa, chickpeas and veg all boiled together then add feta and olive oil.

Or stir fry veg and fish cooked in a frying pan with lime juice. Didn’t photograph that one.

So as you see, quick and simple then crawl back to bed. That’s where I’m going now.

Oh and my son had some delicious cake this afternoon. I was so jealous..

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Trying to keep busy and holy hormone hell

So the past day or so I’ve been trying to keep busy in the midst of all this drama/trauma. It’s affecting my stress levels and blood pressure which I don’t want to start becoming a problem.

My hormones are also all over the place like ridiculously so. I’ve just had a 17 day cycle and the one before that was 22, before that 35 days. The past month I was either bleeding or building up to a bleed. Honestly I’m exhausted. The doctor is sending me for an ultrasound as there is a chance of cancer at my age and it’s always best to be on the safe side. They are also upping my hrt in a week’s time. I’m hoping that will help.

Tomorrow should be an exciting day as my daughter and I are traveling to Manchester to meet with a whole load of other PTEN gene disorder sufferers. I’ve been Facebook friends with a few for a while so it will be fab to meet them in person.

Sugar and booze wise I had a really tempting moment with the sugar just today. My husband has taken to having bags of chocolate around when he’s working, giant buttons that kind of thing. Normally I’d just dip my hand in and take one. In fact that’s such a subconscious pattern I almost did reach over!! But I didn’t. Still on the straight and narrow!

Fab sugar free find of the day has been a sugar free Tumeric Latte mix, it’s lush!

Week overview of natural sugar intake.

I had the bright idea yesterday that rather than boring you every day (I still might) with what I ate and what sugars I took in that day I could use my fitness Pal week overview. So below you’ll find my total sugars for the week. Around 40g a day about the amount in a can of coke. Funny when you think of it that way.

I’m still sticking with my sugar free booze free intentions. Oh boy, if ever I was going to cave it would have been this week. It’s been hell, everything I was working towards to try and help my son wasn’t just undermined but ripped up and thrown away plus a wedge driven between we’ll never overcome. I’m now in one of those situations where it’s like when you’re looking at a broken plate on the floor. You can try and glue it but it won’t ever be useable again. What’s been broken is broken for good, trust works like that.

It’s heartbreaking but I’m going to try and focus on moving forward. We are looking into relocating as soon as we practically can. I just want out of here. Now. Honestly if I could pack a bag and leave tomorrow I would!

Until I can it’s just keeping busy, daughter and I had a lovely couple of hours doing just that at Bamburgh castle. If you ever visit Northumberland it’s one you must see!

Quick update

Not been brilliant at blogging this week, life has been rather arsey and is continuing to be so.

I’ve kept up with the no sugar no booze thing, regardless even if I haven’t blogged about it. My cunning plan is to screenshot a weeks worth of my fitness Pal data tomorrow once the full 7 days have passed. Clever huh!

The sticky points this week have been resisting the urge to bury my face in cake when feeling rather heartbroken over a few things equally while resisting drowning myself in wine. It wouldn’t make anything any better, but, oh nice things, I don’t think anything will improve either to be honest. I’m in a situation where I can’t see anyway forward. That has made the desire to comfort with food or drink very strong. Food and emotions are very much intertwined.

I’ve started experimenting with making bread as I miss toast and all processed gluten free bread has refined sugar in. This soda bread made with half buckwheat and half gluten-free flour turned out ok but a little crumbly. I’ve tried again today with the addition of xanthan gum, once I get it to work well I’ll share the recipe.

The other tricky time was eating lunch out with my son and a lovely friend. I found a soup I could have but the temptation of the sweet stuff!!! Oh so hard. But if this year is to work I have to cope with the tough stuff without caving and socialise as normal without caving.

Jasper and I have in the middle of this otherwise rubbish week had some lovely dog walks, particularly at Beadnell. I spend more time than I use at Beadnell right now as eldest child has a job there that seems to involve a lot of me driving him there after missed buses.

Exercise has been plentiful and abundant, mostly CrossFit but I also turn on the “cardio” button on my Garmin when gardening. I want those extra calories!!

We had a runaway cat wise who went out then forgot to return for a couple of days. He brought us many dead birds as way of apology. I wish he wouldn’t. Little s**t!

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